Monthly Archives: December 2018

It’s Okay to Not Know What Your Story is Yet

Someone once told me that I would never amount to anything because I didn’t know what my “calling” was when I was in my mid 20’s. But I’m here to tell you that it’s okay to not know what your story is yet.

At the time those words cut so deep. Honestly, they shouldn’t have because those words didn’t come from someone who added value to my life. This person only wanted to tear me down. I was a newly single mom of 3 young children and had been a stay-at-home mom for the last 3 or 4 years of the marriage I was in at the time.

I didn’t know what I was going to do when I left the toxic marriage I was in. Thankfully, my parents knew that me being home to raise my children was most important. While I was caring for my children, I was also keeping an eye on my elderly grandmother (Grammy). Between my kids and my grandmother, they sure kept me on my toes.

Here I am almost a decade later… doing what I want to do. Blogging. Creating Content (YouTube) and sharing my life with others. I know I’m not an “influencer” but I can still share my story and knowledge in hopes of helping someone else.

Blogging and creating content allows me to be home with my children and has the potential to earn an income. Granted, I don’t currently make but a few cents here and there with my blogs. But in time, I know I will be able to bring home some bacon to help my husband support our family.

Some days when trying to write content or record a video is just a little too overwhelming, I throw in the towel.

Stop throwing in the towel!

Remember it is okay to take a break but it is not okay to give up. You have to keep working towards your end goal. For me, that end goal is to be able to use the money I earn from blogging to get our family out of debt.

I know that there are so many people who feel like they’re not worth anything because they don’t know what they were meant to do. That’s okay. You can feel bad but only for a little while. Feeling bad won’t do you any good. You have to march to the beat of your own drum. Let others have their opinions and just keep proving them wrong. You can do it.

You don’t need anyone’s approval. You just need to love what you do. Whatever you’re passionate about, just do it!




Is Daily Vlogging My Calling?

In May of this year, I set out to start daily vlogging (you can read about that here), when it didn’t happen I then asked myself “Is Daily Vlogging My Calling?”… unfortunately, daily vlogging isn’t my calling at this time. My life is rather boring now that all 5 of the kids are in school. So what is my calling? Well, I’m not really sure. But what I can tell you is that it is okay to not really know what your calling is just yet.

Some people are born knowing what they want to do, others figure it out while they’re in middle school/high school, while others it takes a lot longer to really figure out what they love to do.

Are you a daily vlogger? If not, I will tell you that it takes a lot of time to record video, create B-Roll, and then edit it all together while still managing to tell a good story. I’m good at none of that. I’m still learning. I wish it came so easily to me. I honestly see so many ideas running around in my head that would make great videos, but my non-creative mind cannot make it come out the way I see it in my head.

Because I struggle with what my calling is and I really do wonder is daily vlogging my calling. That sometimes I get in this mindset that I need to do it. I need to just pick up the camera and vlog. But then when I pick the camera up I don’t know what to say or do.

So instead I sit here stagnant wondering when I will figure out what my calling is. I wonder if being a mom and wife is the only thing I’ll ever be good at. Some days I’ll even question if I’m good at that.

If you’re wondering what your calling is, don’t worry you aren’t alone. You have at least one other person (me) who still doesn’t know what she wants to do with her life.

Maybe 2019 will be my year where I decide if Daily Vlogging is my calling. Until then, keep pushing forward, keep trying new things and don’t let the negative opinions of anyone else get you down.