As each day passes Kevin and I feel like we’re failures for not being able to purchase a home for our family. Our children don’t have the space they’re used to having, 90% of our items are in a storage unit in Maryland collecting dust while wasting money, and we’re just not happy with our living arrangements.
Life is too short to be unhappy all the time. Life is to short to not enjoy the little things in life. But the thing is… all the things we keep trying to do in order to give our kids a better life keep falling through. It’s beyond frustrating. I’d rather be posting updates about how awesome our new house is, or what new DIY project we’re doing, or what craft project the kids have done, or what we’re baking/cooking, etc. I know Kevin and I aren’t perfect and that we’re doing the best we can for our family, but it still hurts to feel like we’re failures.
I would never say that I feel like a failure in front of my kids, but I do feel like a failure. I should have used my time as a stay-at-home mother to further my education, to dedicate more time to saving money by clipping coupons or finding better deals on things I buy regularly. Or I feel like I should have found a job that I could do from home, or found a way to make money blogging sooner than I did. Some days I wish I was more “popular” online so I can earn money through YouTube and Blogging, or that I became well known for my photography skills. But at this point in my life, it’s obviously not meant to be like that. I have to find a way to earn money that isn’t illegal, but also isn’t as traditional as a regular job. I want to continue to be a stay-at-home mother as long as I can be because it’s what’s best for my children.
So in doing what’s best for my children, I’ve taken to social media to help my family. See I’m one of those people who love all things social media. Why? Because it allows me to express myself and to post creative things. It allows others to get to know me and allows me to meet people I wouldn’t meet every day. Social media has so much diversity in it’s users that it allows people to meet that normally wouldn’t cross paths.
I may not be the perfect journalist (my grammar and punctuation are lacking at times), but that shouldn’t stop me from blogging. People get better with practice. I’ve been blogging since Myspace and Xanga days.
I want to get out of this rut of feeling like a failure. I want to show my kids that they can do anything they set their little hearts and minds to doing. So Kevin and I will keep on pressing forward and doing whatever we can to get our family a home to call our own.
We’re hoping to find a Corporate Sponsor or a home builder to help us achieve our goal of home-ownership. We’re willing to work hard for what we want in life. I’m here to turn our failures into a big, bright future for our children.
We don’t want to feel like failures anymore.