Planning for the Future
If you haven’t guessed it already, I’m into planning. I try and plan everything. I like concrete plans and details. It is just who I am. I used to be more go with the flow but having 5 kids really had gotten me to work towards a schedule, that way everyone gets to do things that they want to do. So I’m planning for the future, the near future.
I have spent the better half of 3 years fighting an uphill battle with my weight. Since I had Zachary in June of 2012, I have struggled to drop the excess weight I gained in 2011-2012. After having Ryleigh, I lost all of my pregnancy weight in 3 weeks! BUT I gained some of it back after moving. The stress really got to me, I couldn’t find the time to workout regularly. I always had an excuse. I’m tired of the excuses when it comes to my health. So I’m planning for the future, my future.
I have several goals that I want to achieve, but first and foremost, I want to be healthy for the sake of my children. I want to be more active with them. Airsoft wars with the little boy who gave me so much strength and taught me so much in the last 12 years. Gymnastics practice with my 1st daughter, the one I so hoped would be a little boy because I wasn’t ready to raise a daughter. I thought I’d somehow fail her as a mother because I grew up a tomboy. Dance classes with my spunky little spudlet. T-ball with my terror and tumbling with my littlest love. I want so bad to be able to keep up with them, but my body is telling me otherwise.
I need to get my physical health back on track, so I can be a more active part in their lives. No more excuses. The only thing that’s holding me back right now… is space.
So I’m planning for the future… making my plans, getting all my supplies, getting all my thoughts together and slowly working towards the day that I can start working out. My plans are to start working out within the first month after we move into our home. I like to start things on the 1st of a month, so if we move in as soon as we close then I’ll be starting on July 1st. If not, we’ll I start on the 1st day of the following month.
I’m ordering meal prep containers. I’m one of those people who will fix food for her kids and then not feed herself. So my goal is to prep my meals and snacs each morning while I’m dealing with the kids breakfast and school lunches (during the school year). I’m going to keep track of my eating, my exercise, my water intake (which is something I struggle with), and pretty much everything possible. I’d like to do videos for my Vlog channel, but we’ll have to see how that goes. I’m currently not recording any videos because I’m still searching for the software that I had on my desktop when it crashed. I had the disks somewhere, I just need to locate them.
If I want to get anywhere in my life and be a positive example for my children, I need to stop putting things off. I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and my weight gain. I need to get off my ass and do something about it. Stop looking for quick fixes and just do the work… the hard work. It will all pay off in the end.
I need to stop stuffing my face with food that has very little nutritional value and actually eating clean. No more fast food, no more sodas (okay, okay… just once in a while I’ll drink a soda). I need to cut out the excess sugar and calories. I need to stop sitting on my ass all day and thinking it’s just going to disappear without me doing anything. Okay, so I really don’t think it’s going to disappear without me doing anything… in case you were wondering. I actually understand why I’m not losing weight. It’s because I’m stuck in the same rut, I’ve been in for almost 2 full years. I’m not sure if it’s untreated post-partum depression but somedays I don’t even want to get out of bed. Every day can be a struggle, but I want to change that. I want to move forward with my life. I want to be healthy, physically and mentally.
With the house we’re buying, I’ll be able to put the treadmill in the family room. So I can keep an eye on the littlest two while I workout. I also plan on using T25 since I already have it and once I’ve completed T25 at least once (maybe twice) then I’ll move on to Insanity.
I plan on investing in an Obsidian slideboard because it’s easy on the knee joints. My knees are really weak, so I’m hoping to work on strengthing my joints while losing weight. I also want to get Kangoo Jumps. I know… I know. Crazy fad toys to play with. But if it makes “exercising” fun, then I won’t realize just how much I’m working out and want to keep doing it. That makes it so much easier on me. I hate when working out feels like a chore. So if it’s fun, I’m in!
I’d also like to see about getting 22 Minute Hard Corps and Hammer and Chisel from BeachBody. Not all workouts are going to be fun or even easy. But these two will help me tone and gain muscle. I can’t do them all at once, but I think it would be nice to rotate between these two programs on a weekly basis.
I cannot give up this time. I know how I am. If I don’t see results pretty much immediately, then I give up. In my head, I know I shouldn’t give up when I don’t see results, but I just cannot help it. It’s frustrating, to say the least. I never really had a problem with my weight as an adult. In my mid-teen years, I took Kung fu classes with my brother, I walked to work before I got my license, I was really active. I went from weighing 178lbs in 2000 to weighing 130 lbs in 2001. At that time, I felt good in my own skin. Now… not so much! But after having 5 kids, I’m going to have loose skin… I’ll just have to get a tummy tuck when I drop all my excess weight and have kept it off for at least a year. Maybe that will be my 35th birthday present to myself (I better start saving now). I’m petrified of surgery and recovery, so I’m hoping that I can avoid surgery at all costs.
Because I am so impatient, I’m ready to move. I’m ready to start working out again. I’m ready to see some results on the scale and in the way my clothes fit. I’m not just about a # on the scale. But I do have an actual goal set for my weight. I also have a size goal set. That way, I’m not bound to either one of them. I just want to reach one of them. Whichever happens first.
I’m really looking forward to what’s in store for me, as I lose this excess weight. I’m looking forward to feeling happy with my physical appearance and the growth of my physical strength. Nothing but myself is stopping me from reaching my goals. I’m going to keep on planning for the future and my success.
Do you have any goals regarding your health or wellbeing? If so, leave me a comment below. I’d love to know that I’m not alone in my quest for better health.