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Hitting Rock Bottom

For the last few months, I have avoided writing this blog post because I didn’t want to admit that I was in fact, hitting rock bottom. I have been drug along the rocks and have been left battered and bruised from the lifestyle that I have lived for the last 6 years and probably longer.

Hitting rock bottom has been a rough experience for me. I’ve been left feeling ashamed, broken, depressed and more. You see, for the last 6 years, I have struggled to keep my weight in check. I have half-ass attempted to lose weight over the years, which in all reality just ended up costing us money… Wasted Money! Ugh! Hundreds of dollars down the drain.

Over the 6 years that I have been with Kevin, I have tried It Works!, Slimfast products, Alli pills that almost killed me last year when Kevin started with the company he works for now, Nutrisystem foods, gym memberships, personal trainer, home gym equipment, multiple BeachBody Workout Programs, Shakeology. If there was a “quick fix” I was willing to try it. Why? Because I have become lazy. I want all the results as quick as possible without going under the knife. I’m scared to death of surgery.

So here I am, sitting at my dining room table wishing I had been smarter, worked harder, actually changed my eating habits, and wishing I could somehow convince myself to get my rear off this chair and move more. I wish I could just give up the sodas and coffee cold turkey.

I’ve set personal goals over and over again for MANY years. It’s sad because I just can’t find the motivation to actually do what I say I’m going to do. I have struggled for a long time with my weight. Now, is the time I actually change and put in the hard work. No one cane make the change but me. I’m tired of feeling as if I’m being slammed into the rocks below me. Hitting rock bottom sucks, BAD! I keep saying I want to use my YouTube channel for accountability, but I haven’t even been able to keep up with that. I mean, I have 5 kids, we’re starting the adoption process, I have a husband who travels. But I just can’t seem to fit everything into my schedule. Ding Ding that’s it. I need to figure out a way to create a schedule that works for me and my family. If that means I record videos in the evening/night after I go to the gym then that is something I will need to figure out.

Kevin understands my need to feel good about myself again. If I can just get out of this massive ditch that I have dug myself into for close to the last 5 years then maybe I wouldn’t have such a problem keeping up with the things that I want to do with my life. But only time will tell.

So here’s what I’m currently up to, I’m getting a gym membership this weekend and starting Monday, March 20th, I’ll be hitting up the gym as often as I possibly can. If that means 3 to 5 times a week, then so be it. My goal is to work my way back into working out ( I was going to the gym when Kevin was still active duty) so we’ll see what works best for the family and for me. Then as time progresses we’ll change things up as needed. That’s all I can do.

So I’m gonna wrap this up, but starting on March 21st, I’m going to make it a point to get back into uploading videos on my YouTube Channel. I may even start creating videos and embedding them here in blog posts so my readers don’t have to go far to watch my videos!

Well, I hope everyone enjoys their weekend, I’m going to do my best. I’ll be hitting up Kohl’s for some new workout gear (shoes, pants, shirts, etc) and then jumping right in on Monday!

Come back soon!



Slowly Making Progress

I am slowly making progress in all aspects of my life. Our house is slowly coming together. We have a few things we want to do this weekend to finish up the basement, we still need to pressure wash the house and front porch and I have the never ending task of mowing the front lawn. Yes, I mow the lawn once a week unless it’s raining. I’m hoping to get out there this evening before it gets dark to mow the lawn. Kevin has to work tomorrow for about 3 hours in the morning. So once he gets home from that we’re going to do our normal weekend errands (grocery shopping, school supplies, gas, etc).

I am slowly making progress on my weight loss efforts. When we moved into our house I gave up drinking soda all day long. I occasionally get a 20 oz soda here and there, but I’ve basically given it up. I went 2 whole weeks without a single soda!!!! In the last 2 months that we’ve been in our house, I’ve lost 15 lbs!!! I’m more aware of my how many miles I walk each day thanks to my FitBit Flex. I’m also getting rewarded for all those miles I’m walking via AchieveMint. You get rewarded with MONEY to log your food intake, your sleep, your step count, etc. Talk about easy, I just set up my FitBit and then use MyFitnessPal app to track my food intake and then connected all the apps to my AchieveMint account. So that’s pretty motivating, that I’m earning money while getting healthy.

Yesterday, I took a walk with Zachary and Ryleigh in the double stroller, my calves burned so bad by the time I got back to the house. The terrain in our neighborhood is horrible, a lot of gravel and dirt and partially paved roads. There are also a ton of hills; REALLY STEEP HILLS. So I’m getting a really great workout every morning when I take the kids on a walk. We’re going to keep doing a daily walk for as long as the weather holds out this fall and winter. I don’t want Zachary and Ryleigh outside if it’s too cold, but we’re going to attempt to walk around the neighborhood even in November. We’ll just have to bundle up. If it’s too cold, we’ll just have to put the stroller in the truck and go to the mall and walk 3 miles, it will just suck because I’m hoping that the uneven and rough terrain is going to help me get to where I want to be faster than any flat surface/terrain.

My life has been super boring lately, Kevin’s been working a lot doing Annual Preventative Maintenance at one of their sites in Virginia. Each Generator takes 12 hours to shut down, do their APM work and then for the engineers to start them back up and do an hour long load banking test to make sure nothing has failed or is wrong with the unit. That’s what he’s been doing all week and has 2 more weeks after that, then he’s headed out of state for 4 days, comes back for the weekend and then heads out of state again for another week. He really misses out on a lot of things, but we know we both have to make sacrifices to provide for our family.

Eventually, all of our current stressors will be dealt with, the house will be in order and we’ll feel at peace when we’re spending time at home. Until then, we’re just going to keep doing things little by little, we’re still slowly making progress.  And I’m slowly but surely making progress towards my weight loss goals.

If you’re struggling with anything, just keep reminding yourself that you have to take it one day at a time.